Opinion: Why did Berkeley admit me if not to say Ann Coulter should be killed in a pro-Islam gay sex dungeon?

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By Krystl Meph

Free speech is not dead. It’s undead. Just ask Mario Savio, who is dead. If he wasn’t dead, he’d tell you that free speech has always been a tactic used by the state to grant the illusion that all voices in this nation are valued.

That’s why powerful Black female senators can say stupid shit, powerful White Supremacist male real estate developers can tweet stupid shit, and powerful transgender ASUC Senators can casually write stupid shit from a theoretical, omniscient perspective.

Somewhere during our political speeches we lost the point. We forgot that the people, the victims, the survivors of UC Berkeley police violence that we casually speak about are people living the experiences we have the privilege of speaking about. Free speech is an illusion, and we must tell the right people how to escape it so they can act with the full knowledge of how to suppress it.

I want to say that I do not feel safe on this campus, so I’m going to say that. I do not feel safe on this campus. I lived on the mean streets for six years after my parents went to jail, but nothing prepared me for the violence of UC Berkeley’s tuition, fees, books, and living expenses. Thank Gaia and Allah that other people are paying for me, or I’d have already made Janet Napolitano the victim of a violent, culturally appropriate form of torture.

Sorry, I lost the point. Oh, yeah, if violence is real then our conversations need to be real too – we must craft our speech so it become a tactic that oppresses the comfortable and comforts the oppressed. The history of our movement has taught us that oppressing our oppressors is the only way to make peace without compromise.

When students woke up to Sproul Plaza flooded with fully armed police officers, I was so shocked and traumatized that I masked up, got my lighter fluid and baseball bat, and joined the anti-fascists on the barricades.

Walking through Sproul reminded me of every bad encounter I’ve had with police. Rioting against free speech reminded me of visiting my parents in jail, but it didn’t stop me. I called my sister, but she wanted to see her kids again instead of violating her parole. So I called her a dick told her we need to fight state intimidation on our campus and that her existence and trauma are not priorities in my decision-making.

I’m not at Berkeley for free speech. I’m getting my degree in political science so I can learn how to charge speaking fees for all the lives that matter to people who pay big speaking fees: Black lives, undocumented lives, queer and trans lives, femme lives, incarcerated lives, poor lives.

But especially poor lives, because nothing says I care about the poor like calling for the executions of the rich. Milo Yiannopoulos and Ann Coulter should die in one of those gloriously violent gay bondage white majority sex dungeons over in San Francisco where all the rich Google workers are gentrifying neighborhoods of color.

I’m not here for the lives BCR fits into their “socially moderate, fiscally conservative” fantasy: white Hispanic lives, Asian lives, legal immigrant lives, law-abiding lives, middle class lives, and the lives of students who don’t protest.

I knew it was disgustingly ironic before I got here that this university pours thousands of dollars into the recruitment of oppressed people and then fails to protect us once we start rioting. It’s not disgustingly ironic that I came here anyway on a full ride “vulnerable communities scholarship.”

People who don’t pay are the only ones allowed to worry about attacks from legislators elected by the people, because we’re the only people who care about forcibly liberating other people from their money. And we’re going to do it the old-fashioned Marxist way – even if Marx is a dead white male European oppressor. Marxist oppression has always been the new anti-fascism.

I want you to believe that I think we must now decide about liberation, so I’ll give you a couple choices that fool people less educated than me.

First, are we committed to the survival of our fellow travelers, or are we keeping our heads down and continuing the pursuit of degrees that were fine-tuned just for our generation of social activists?

Second, are we willing to confront our oppressors who invited us in and pay for us to stay, or do we want to respect the sacrifices others have made for us and support the university actions that disregard our oppressed communities?

If you saw through my subterfuge, you’re not only wrong you’re evil and Antifa is coming for you. Because the idea that America and UC Berkeley are beautiful because we can discuss and organize with opposite sides of the political spectrum is bullshit.

The so-called truth and beauty of American pluralism has done nothing more than maintain the ugly white supremacist, capitalistic and patriarchal nature that allowed colonizers to protect their power centuries ago and that has allowed their descendants to elect an openly racist, queerphobic, Islamophobic/xenophobic and anti-poverty administration.

That’s why America is a Balkanized hell-hole of genocide. And that’s why I’m pro-Islam, pro-queer poverty, pro-brown supremacy, and pro-mass settlement of America.

But I am too tired to go on without using firearms. I see now that power comes from the end of a gun, and I am scared that my life expectancy as a brown trans femme without a gun really is only 35 years. And I’m 35 now. With or without a UC Berkeley diploma, I know I can be killed for walking down the street in a dress. (Note to self, delete before sending: this biological imperative is why I’m pro-Islam, radically pro-niqab, and recently pro-gun.)

As long as this is our reality, my focus will be on the survival of my communities and the utter annihilation of others. The University of California must fully dedicate itself to the liberation of the oppressed students on their diversity brochures, or I will not put down my lighter fuel.

No, we can’t all just get along. So I dare you to try to debate the lives I am trying to victimize. After all, the oppressive campus police will protect my victims before they protect your victims, so I must victimize more people than you or this is not the America I want to live in.

Krystl Meph is a third-year transfer student studying political science and ethnic studies. Xe is an incoming ASUC Senator and lead organizer with the Transgender Law Center.

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